Lately, I've felt so confused about who I am or what I'm doing. I've always thought of myself as straight, but for a while now, I've found myself attracted to a few women. I'm not completely anamoured by all women, just like a few. I wonder if this is normal?
But also I love the lifestyle. I know this sounds ridicuous, but I'm just being honest. I feel like I've never been accepted or never belonged to any type of group, so sometimes I feel that wouldn't it be nice if I could belong, for once? So, is it the love of the lifestyle or am I actually having curious feelings? I can't tell the real from the fake, and I'm starting to obsess over it.
My sister gave me great advice to help me. She said that I shouldn't concentrate on it, and that I should just explore the way I feel and sooner or later, I'll discover my feelings. I'm working on that...
-K
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Friday, January 7, 2011
January 7, 2011
P.S. Here are some of my various interests that could turn into topics of future posts:
Music, internet, books, movies, TV, politics, video games, learning about different cultures, geography, travel, family, society, etc.
Music, internet, books, movies, TV, politics, video games, learning about different cultures, geography, travel, family, society, etc.
January 7, 2011
This is a new year and I'm looking for a new start. Since I have various interests and I have no particular theme or set topic, each post will vary.
Let's get to know one another. I'm Karie, 28, and I currently live in Chicago. I am from the south and sensitive to cold, so as you can probably imagine, it's really hard getting used to this cold, cold weather. But the summers here are beautiful and that's what I'm currently dream of. My brother, Greg, lives up here too. Although he is substanstially older, we still have a lot in common and I consider him my hero. I pretty much followed Greg here (and my distant love of Chicago was another reason I moved). I am currently am employed, but I am stuck in a rut trying to work my way to the top. If there is a top.
I'm bicurious and I'm having a hard time dealing. I don't have much of a support system and because of this I wonder if should I give up on who I am, not just as a bicurious individual, but all together.
The beginning of the year has NOT been a fresh start at all. There's a storm brewing, I just feel it. I am currently in the eye of it for now, but it's coming...
K
Let's get to know one another. I'm Karie, 28, and I currently live in Chicago. I am from the south and sensitive to cold, so as you can probably imagine, it's really hard getting used to this cold, cold weather. But the summers here are beautiful and that's what I'm currently dream of. My brother, Greg, lives up here too. Although he is substanstially older, we still have a lot in common and I consider him my hero. I pretty much followed Greg here (and my distant love of Chicago was another reason I moved). I am currently am employed, but I am stuck in a rut trying to work my way to the top. If there is a top.
I'm bicurious and I'm having a hard time dealing. I don't have much of a support system and because of this I wonder if should I give up on who I am, not just as a bicurious individual, but all together.
The beginning of the year has NOT been a fresh start at all. There's a storm brewing, I just feel it. I am currently in the eye of it for now, but it's coming...
K
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